Challenged

We live in a concrete apartment with 5 medium-sized windows and 2 small ones.   If we have regular rain, the temperature in our apartment is bearable.   We have not had rain in the last 5 days and the temperature is now a large challenge.   The humidity here is very high, too.   On these days, I feel like a slow-roasting chicken.  

Since our series of break-ins, we do not leave the windows in the kids' rooms open at night.   When the electricity goes off each morning, I am convinced that I won't make it through. :)    The challenge of heat without respite or air conditioning doesn't bother me when we have rain.   Without rain, I'm challenged.

And yet, somehow the hours pass and I'm still alive at the end of the day. 

The last 3 months, we've had major problems with our internet provider.    We might have internet for 5 minutes and then nothing for days.    My communication with friends has been difficult.   I'm challenged.

And yet, somehow, I'm still here and focusing more than ever on my friendship with my husband.

Yes, I am challenged.  I'm pushed.    I have found myself to be tougher than I thought I was, but not as tough as I'd like to be.   

Praying for rain.